I've deleted my blog upteen times. &most prob i'm deleting this one too. soon, after im done reading the past entries.

I dont see a point of keeping a stupid blog when i just cant type out what i wanna say. being busy is not a gd excuse. everyone has their own responsibilities. but it's just me. im not honest when it comes to blogging.

I'd rather say life is good or life is ooooookay. I'm not good at sharing abt my "sundal" life in public. or who im currently seeing. or what i actualli feel abt some ppl.

since this is going to be my last post. lets just say. im getting tired with my life. my social life kinda sucks. im spending more time in the lib mugging alone and working to earn the cash. schoolmates are cool. but we're all busy. half of my close frens working too. we dont see each other every day. we dont really hang out nemore. we're tooooooo busy. n one is still stranded in indon. maybe he almost forget abt us.

my love life is cool. well, actualli its complicated. or maybe im the one thinking too much. i am not ready to reveal who, like i usually do. coz my love always fail. im not putting high hopes on this one. yet? i dont know. well, our horoscope says we're like ying and yang. but i dont believe in that shit. =/ it's too soon to tell where our relationship is leading us to.

my ex bf is gone. to sydney. yes, he migrated. the one i loved for the past two years. finally, we met. it was the hardest goodbye. no matter how much you lied. no matter how many times you disappoint me, i have forgiven you. i have put the past behind me bcause i know the one who made more mistakes and regret tend to treasure you more. actualli, since the day we met. i have yet to open my heart sincerely to anyone else. i have to blame you on that. take care wherever you are darlz. imy.

Mistakes. We all make mistakes and we learn best from it. *sigh*

That is all i have to say. This is my last post. &It isint a random one.

gdnite world.

*hugs*

hey hey sexy.

it's friday nite which means im at work. nothing new. not much work to do today. actuali, i've got nothing to do! been searching my name in google. my name's linked to ppl's blog's (mainly the hyukers) archives.

been reading and somehow it's making me sad. i miss hyuk. miss those days.

i suddenly remmbered that,

1) i used to be with donk
2) i was fcking close to lyn and alep
3) i used to call lyn my pumpkin ( i almost forget! those days!)
4) n she called me pumpnok
5) i used to be close to BB
6) i used to be notti (hurr)
7) hyuk spend almost everyday together
8) 5 to 6 days a week!
9) hyuk smangat gamelan!

dan lain lain lagi.

namun tahun ini. banyak telah berubah. kini aku seorang saja hyuker di BMC. yg laen ke poly dan JC. dan ada dua maseh di BPGHS.

but still, im grateful to have fifi, abu, lars and kenji, roza n isha in BMC. my 6 most fav ppl. (=
whom i have to see now almost everyday. sianz. HAHAHAHA. k bedek. love you syaitans!

k dah. bye.

hello beautifool ppl.

=P

im all greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen now.
oh oh btw im in school!
having business studies now!
woohooo....

FIFI DONT LOOK AT MY SCREEN!
kaypoh eh.
hahaha.

i've got nothing to blog abt today.


p.s. Bukan kerana ku takur slh. tetapi ku takut benar apa yang kurasa. =/

hello world.

i guess someone read my previous post. igtkan tak tauu rupanya sedar pon.

So you're saying that you can only be friends who remind you to do your 5 prayers a day and remind you to do all the good things all the time. ermm excuse me. dont you have brains to think for yourself? hurrr.... =/

well, who was the one who had no friends and depended on us to go classes with you at first? Who were the one accompanied you all the way to bras basah to get your books? &when you were always going missing, who the fck tried to find you.

oh im sooo not mad at you. its just that sometimes i regretted standing up for you since you only see the bad side of me and the rest.

kau jek baek kay.

bye

perfect, i can never be. no one can. not even YOU. chicken.

i totally dislike, those who thinks that she/he is SOO SOO PERRRRFECT.

seriously. turns me off.

what's the matter with these kind of ppl? you think that we're bad ppl. bad company. always creating sins. talking shits. talking cock. at LEAST, we accpt each other for who they turned out to be. We respect each other even though we call each other names. (we fcking nou we're joking)

because we're just like that. &you cant change us. we're creating our own sins. If you're thinking that we are bad company. come on, we're not even asking you to curse along with us. we swear like a sailor but did we ask you to do the same? damn. it wasnt like this until you think that you know everything. maybe you know more. but you dont have to be pissed or wtv shit. this is life man. you continue to be this way, all your friends will ditch you one day.

oh yes. im ashame. im so low compared to you. we dress the same. but im nothing like you. but i thank god. im not you. dont think so highly of yourself ok. even if i dont act like you. i nou a hell lot baby. its just that im not a show off. (:

kita bukan kawan yang suruh kau makan taik PER.

dan sememangnyer, kita tak sempurna.

sekian.

random posts.

i found out yesterday that..

*taxi drivers can be a fcking bitch, irresponsible road users, fcking dont care abt the innocent lives (mine actualli) they're risking. stupid.

*one of my friend is disgusting.

*i can be NOT lazy at work.

*im hungry ALL THE TIME.

*im liking someone much much more than the previous day.

tts all.

hey hey sexy.

currently at work. as usual. nothing new. oh wait. THERE IS something new. now instead of ending work at 6. i end work at 8. HOW EXCITING. fcked up smtymes but wat to do.

abu's performing at esplanade tonite at 10. not sure if im coming. hopefully dayah can make it.

i gotta lose weight reaal soon. i feel sooooooo heavy now. everytime i walk up the stairs to school. it feels as though im carrying a pig behind my back. damn it. soon, i'll look worst than a humpty dumpty.

p.s. = im a half monk now. hehe.

im getting pms-y.
&i feel like slapping someone's forehead.

im in the lib.
blogging.
pathetic.

i don wanna go home.

i just dont feel like going home.

bye.

post:kemurungan

hello earthlings.

i know it's been a loooong time since i typed somethg meaningful here. my life only revolves arnd work n skool. been hanging out wid my classmates more than neone else. n yeah. i miss school days alot. esp HYUK sayangs n the darling classmates. well, i cant deny that private school is more relaxing and fun? haha. BUT of course i wont forget those stupid moments i had in sec school. totalli kick ass la seh. (:

&i also know that my previous previous post was full of angst and left you guys confused. oh its just that i got to know la kan.. ex bf is meeting someone new. it was childish of me getting upset. maybe its bcoz he was too promising last time and i had high hopes on him. HAHA. but seriously guys (esp those gg thru NS), dont give lame shits and excuses on why ur dumping us. loser. &its true, lovers can never be friends. HAH. BTW, friends rply msgs and answer calls OKAY. what were you thinking. you were never sincere la. okay wtv. its over neway. ((:

&oh. i cant stand ppl who thinks that things should always go their way n tt they're always rite and they think they're so good that we shld give the respect that they craved for and that they have the rite to say nethg (speaking their mind) and worst still, they dont realise their mistakes. in short, i cant stand annoying two face asshole. just dont mess wid me la. (:

lastly,
im a nun.
single-bald(k bedek-n happy~

(:

cheers.